So id like to explain why I am back so early.
The funeral was already planned my aunt had apparently already planned this I did little but attened her funeral. And gave a eulogy.
I am also listening to 3 pieces of advice she gave me.
And yes you can tell she had a influence on me.
"Don't you god damn mourn me I know it will be sad but I don't want to look down and see you miserable go to your therapist live your life and just please dont wallow in misery I lived that life when I lost your uncle it isn't a good thing celebrate my life and live yours."
"Dont try to pretend every thing is okay you wanna cry? Then cry you wanna watch old.videos do that. And fuck anyone who tells you to move on. There is no such thing as getting over death of a loved one. I just dont want you to wallow in it. And I will know if you are hell the people in china will know that you are."
"And I mean it live your life I know you love being bright and happy and flamboyant dont you stop being that just because I am dead and gone. I raised you better than that"
She also told me 2 oyher things vut id rather not divulge those things.
She had basicaly a wake planned she basically told us to have a party and mourn her little. I swear her will was more vulgar than me. Going on about how if anyone shows up in black to smack them and tell them to changeand also to.just celebrate it as a birthday not a funeral "as I'm not that fucking old fashioned " And other things I can't say....*whistles innocently* I didnt get that part of me from nowhere. She had a very big influence there so you can largely blame her for that lol.
So thats why im here to listen to her. I am.mourning her but well she is right while I shouldn't pretend she isnt dead I still have a life I need to live.
And so after like 3 days of crying and screaming and therapy im baco.
I wont be on as often as I still need to limit my time on here for theraputic reasons but still.
The funeral was already planned my aunt had apparently already planned this I did little but attened her funeral. And gave a eulogy.
I am also listening to 3 pieces of advice she gave me.
And yes you can tell she had a influence on me.
"Don't you god damn mourn me I know it will be sad but I don't want to look down and see you miserable go to your therapist live your life and just please dont wallow in misery I lived that life when I lost your uncle it isn't a good thing celebrate my life and live yours."
"Dont try to pretend every thing is okay you wanna cry? Then cry you wanna watch old.videos do that. And fuck anyone who tells you to move on. There is no such thing as getting over death of a loved one. I just dont want you to wallow in it. And I will know if you are hell the people in china will know that you are."
"And I mean it live your life I know you love being bright and happy and flamboyant dont you stop being that just because I am dead and gone. I raised you better than that"
She also told me 2 oyher things vut id rather not divulge those things.
She had basicaly a wake planned she basically told us to have a party and mourn her little. I swear her will was more vulgar than me. Going on about how if anyone shows up in black to smack them and tell them to changeand also to.just celebrate it as a birthday not a funeral "as I'm not that fucking old fashioned " And other things I can't say....*whistles innocently* I didnt get that part of me from nowhere. She had a very big influence there so you can largely blame her for that lol.
So thats why im here to listen to her. I am.mourning her but well she is right while I shouldn't pretend she isnt dead I still have a life I need to live.
And so after like 3 days of crying and screaming and therapy im baco.
I wont be on as often as I still need to limit my time on here for theraputic reasons but still.